Ironically, the Sunday prior to the start of Blissdom I was flipping through pictures my 7 year daughter took on her ipod and I saw one of myself that made me cry and realize it was time to make some changes.
|The photo that changed it all|
|The "thin" me on my wedding day|
back pain which at times made it hard to even walk, so exercise was out of the question. As the years crept by the scale would inch up and then back down and I would tell myself as long as I don't go over the next five pound mark I'll be fine. Then I would hit and surpass that five pounds and just shift to the next "don't get pass that" weight. Even though I am short (only 5'4") I managed to carry my weight well, or so I thought. I mean other that your children who's going to tell you that you have a jiggly belly. Last Sunday everything changed. I looked at the picture of an overweight mom with her stretchy track pants and sloppy belly and realized I needed to make a change. I was eating too much, the wrong foods, not exercising and I had replaced water with coffee for my daily fluid intake. I rationalized that I was a busy mom of two children, working full-time and that it was normal to adopt these bad habits. What I didn't admit was that I didn't want to go to the pool with my girls because I hated the way I looked in a bathing suit and I passed on most active time with my family because I was too tired (and out of shape). I am an emotional eater and I like food, all food, so no matter what's happening in my life it's likely to involve food.
|Yes, my husband cooks|
Day one (Monday) I rose resolute to make a change, eat healthy and heck I might even sneak in some exercise. I downloaded a diet app to my iphone and set my calorie goal at 1,200 per day because I knew that I could manage my food intake pretty easily but getting exercise was going to be harder. I had been down this road before and I managed to lose 25 lbs without too much hardship but then I was single and only had to worry about me - a fact that I didn't consider. That morning, I made the girls lunches and got them packed away. I made a healthy smoothie for breakfast enjoyed my morning coffee at home and then make a lunch for myself counting calories and plugging them in the app as I went. I tracked my snacks, made my own dinner, drank lots of water and stayed under my allotted calories. Day one was a success! Day 2 and 3 were similar but I was getting frustrated, my mornings were rushed and I was having time management issues plus my culinary skills are slim to none so I was eating the same thing for lunch everyday and it was getting boring quickly. Day 4 things started out well, I was packing for Blissdom and looking forward to the days ahead but I didn't have a plan for eating other than relying on my rapidly diminishing willpower. I tried to make good choices while I was away but I ate too much, enjoyed lots of coffee along with the donuts that Tim Hortons were so generously giving us (how do you turn down a delicious free donut?!?) I had brought along my bathing suit and workout clothes but both remained packed away in my suitcase all three days. On the upside I was having a great time. The euphoria faded today when I stepped on the scale for the first time in 3 days it hadn't moved an inch. Damn!
|Melon offsets that bacon & sausage right?|
I have always been the kind of person that goes "all in" and it has worked well for me when I needed to attain a goal. Tomorrow is Monday and once again I will reset and start anew. I am not sure if counting calories is going to work this time, my life is busier now and I have to consider this. I can't just focus on me anymore, it's a new dynamic for me to have to set a goal and work on adjusting a bit at a time to reach my desired outcome. What I will do starting tomorrow is to make changes. I will drink more water, I will cut out the late night snacking, I will make better lunch choices when I eat out and some time in the near future I will reach my goal of losing 20-25 lbs.
I hope you will follow me on this journey and I welcome your tips, suggestions and recommendations on reaching my goal. Day 1 starts tomorrow.